I changed my name to fit my feelings.

During my time of feeling transgender and truly feeling I was born in the wrong body I changed my name multiple times. Created fake profiles on social media and went by those names when I was actively pursuing being a women. I felt as if I could change my name and my outward apperance somehow my identity would be fixed and id feel whole. However it was all just a mask a way to cover up the pain I felt. No one grows up believing they were born in the wrong body with massive trauma. I shut down in these moments and grabbed onto the only thing I knew which was that there was something wrong with me. I changed my name and identity multiple times. 1 time I almost tried to change my name legally set up all kinds of accts and started looking for a job that I could be myself at. Its only now I know that my identity was shattered. I changed my first and last name to Katie brooks at one point and created a facebook profile added pictures started getting friends wanted to fully change who I was to fit my feelings.